Unresponded
I wish I could have know
How much longer it takes
Until i drop the wishes
Of you being with me today.
And every time I see you
I keep thinking of you the next day
And every text I send you
Keeps my heart running away
And I keep hoping
That one day you’ll come back
For this is unresponded love
Like the one you forget to breath
For this is unresponded love
That will melt you in your sleep
For this is unresponded love
That you can’t do more but wish
Am I a fool to hope?
But i am enslaved to this love
In chains I cope
Some years ago I found myself asking someone out. Someone that I had a crush on months before this happened. I asked her out to hang out and she agreed. As soon as I did this I started questioning my decision, she had always been very clear that there is no interest from her side. So at that moment I asked myself, why am I doing this to myself. I was exposing myself to the pain again, I was going to meet her and remember all the good things I like about her. Of course this will end up in my disappointment of knowing that there is no point to my hopes. So I blamed myself about not letting go. A friend told me that he wishes the best for me, to be free of this chains, to find a woman that actually appreciates me.
That night before we met, i took the guitar and kept playing those chords. Very simple and repetitive, the common progression C, D, Em, G but with a different voicing that gave them a quite simple but deep vibe. Sitting on the couch I started flowing lyrics out of my mouth. With my phone in the hand I recorded it so I don’t forget, subsequently writing the lyrics and the chord progressions. I found it very calming to express this internal debate through music.
We met the next day and it was a very good day. We talked a lot and very deeply, I couldn’t but to shield my heart from feelings and deflecting everything that seamed hopeful.
Few weeks passed and I recorded the song, it is not perfect at all, but I felt like I wanted to finish it. I wanted to send it to her and letting her know.